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Goodbye Emptiness, Hello Mayhem [Jan. 29th, 2010|11:04 pm]
Boys Like Girls was yesterday and it was loud. You know, like boomz. (hurhur) Went with Anita! (: It was awesome and I'm partially deaf and blind now (we were near the speakers, and the lights are WOW) Uploading the videos onto youtube and photos are on FB already! (:

This week went by very fast. The J1s are now in and it's still orientation for them (I remembered how I hated the whole idea of orientation because I'm not exactly the type that likes such things). Goodbye to empty breaks and hello to mayhem.

Tuesday was elearning - went to send Sasha off, but then I guess we're starcrossed lovers - we didn't get to see each other D: I damn sad.

Training this week was pretty good. Wednesday was good because I was pretty pissed and sad so I just hit the ball really hard (: Today was tiring, but at least we had the whole gym to ourselves to do whatever we wanted. Hmm, then played match which was epic fail on the astrofield. Went over the the semi-D afterwards and it was much better. I think I should stick with wicket-keeping (: Stressful, but at least I don't have to bowl.

Oh well, we shall wait and see what happens tomorrow shall we. I'll decide what my next step will be from there.
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I'm supposed to e-learn... (damn) [Jan. 26th, 2010|05:57 pm]
Today is elearning day and its time to slack in front of the computer and listen to lectures at home. This is way more productive, no sarcasm intended.  (5 May 2009)

This was what I wrote during last year's elearning day. This year, I beg to differ. I spent so much time in front of the computer doing nothing. The internet is so distracting! Argh. I think last year's lectures were way more effective? I don't even get what we're supposed to do for maths - the instructions are so unclear and there is no way I how how to fill up the lecture notes. The only thing I did today was bio and a little econs. Chem was already taught during tutorials so just have to study it myself and then do up the worksheet (which I haven't printed). Argh so sleepy already how am I going to stay awake tonight to do work! D: Argh Argh Argh.

Tomorrow's going to be a long day especially with Cricket and all. (die tomorrow got GP me thinks) 

Sasha's leaving tonight and I haven't got the chance to pass her my beautifully made card D: I guess I'm going to have to send it to her in australia and hope she gets it soon D: I'll miss you a lot!! :'(

Those two/three days were a blur. It was surreal. Can you please let me know if it was true, it it even happened. I could be just reading too much into things right? (Please tell me otherwise cause I wish for/want it to be real)
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The first week (almost!) of school [Jan. 14th, 2010|10:46 pm]
Argh, some person is smoking upstairs and I'm breathing in all the stupid second hand smoke!! 

Tomorrow marks the last day of the first week of the 2010 school year! It's a great milestone okay. I think I've never hated going to school before. But now, I just feel so lazy and tired to get up so early in the morning and bring myself to school then stay all the way till so late. D:

At least my timetable doesn't suck that much. We don't end late on too many days. But throw in CCA and extra lessons, it's a whole different story. Yesterday was open house = slacky day at school and early dismissals and just lectures! (: 

Cricket doesn't start till next week, after MSAs (which I'm so dead for) and I'm so unfit that I think I probably can't run/do pushups/ and all the physical training. SOS!

Rushing my GP portfolio now because I have to pass up something tomorrow. I planned to do econs today but fail of course. 

I don't know why we are doing what we're doing, but it's driving me crazy and I don't know what to expect anymore.
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BACKSTREETBOYS [Jan. 10th, 2010|06:46 pm]
 SHIT OMG THIS POST DESERVES TO BE ALL CAPS AND ENLARGED (IF YOU READ THIS FROM MY FB NOTES, THERE WILL BE NO DIFFERENCE; BUT ON MY LJ, IT WILL BE EXTRA BIG FONT SIZE) OMG I AM SO EXCITED I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT. 

BACKSTREET BOYS ARE COMING TO SINGAPORE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I AM SO GOING THERE. OH SHIT SHOULD NOT GO FOR BOYSLIKEGIRLS BUT NEVERMIND. CRAAAAAAP SO MANY GOOD ACTS ARE COMING TO SINGAPORE! D: PLEASE STOP COMING UNTIL AFTER A LEVELSS!!!

I HAVE TO GO FOR BSB. GOSH!!!!! TALKING TO AKSHAYA AND WE'RE SO GOING TO BE THERE. IF I DON'T GO I THINK I MIGHT JUST CRY. I THINK IT WILL BE A WHOLE FAMILY AFFAIR AGAIN MAYBE MY AUNT AND COUSINS WILL WANT TO GO!
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PROCRASTINATION = DIE [Jan. 10th, 2010|01:16 am]
 DIE SO MUCH HOMEWORK NOT DONE YET AND SCHOOLS STARTING. DIE EXPIRE DECOMPOSE. Well at least I know that my population of procrastinators is growing! (:
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& the quest for immortality [Jan. 9th, 2010|12:34 am]
School is starting in let's see.. two days. Okay maybe one day, depends on how you see it I guess. Received the timetable from Qian by sms, and we freaking have GP on monday, dieee. I never do my portfolio. I started, but it never saw an ending. And we freaking end at 5pm. What a great way to start day 1 of the school term. Thanks a lot. But good thing is we end at 1pm on tuesday, but we have Cricket meeting for openhouse prep. I can't fathom what time we'll end on the other days. I'm hoping there will be a lot of admin work to settle on monday (like the whole entire day), and teachers will waste a bit of time and telling us what they expect of us and yadayada (I need a wake up call and to buy more time to not start yet) else it'll be a horrible case of monday blues with first day blues! So anyway, I'll leave this to sunday to worry about.

Did absolutely nothing on friday (since it's saturday now). Woke up in the morning, went online then got ready to go meet mumsy at her shop, went to eat at SMU subway, then we were off to the National Museum of Singapore for the Quest for Immortality!! It was quite cool, plus it was my first time in the National Museum of Singapore (in my defense, I never knew it existed, but I've been to ACM, the stamp museum and I've seen SAM). The Museum is now my favourite place! It's so peaceful and quiet and so pretty.

Then went in and out of the museum cause mumsy had something to do, but in the end, we went back again and then headed to Cathay, mumsy wanted scones, but it was full (we didn't want to sit outside) so I convinced her to go down to Yakun. Headed back to the shop, with the hopes of still making it back on time to catch my 530pm show (LOVE @ ZERO DEGREES with ELVIN NG and RUIEN) but I got cheated and ended up staying there till almost 6pm. Luckily, my mumsy said that we might as well stay out since it's so late already, so I made her bring me to ION. But went to collect BLG tickets first, then went to MadeWithLove to get some materials cause it was closed on wednesday for stocktake. Then headed to ION, and spent money at BodyShop again! (Qianying, I did not spend $90++ again okay). Then dinner (it was so beef-y) and headed home. 

Okay, I should go sleep around now since there's tuition in a few hours. Oh bother, I didn't do my homework. Gosh. D:
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Let me show you the shape of my heart [Jan. 4th, 2010|01:27 pm]
</lj-embed>Backstreet Boys - THIS IS US!

</lj-embed></lj-embed>Backstreet Boys - BIGGER!

</lj-embed>Backstreet Boys - INCOMPLETE!

</lj-embed>Backstreet Boys - STRAIGHT THROUGH MY HEART!!
(I love their synchronized moves and all! - this video in particularr)

I'm like watching the Backstreet Boys live at last year's F1! It was so awesome, I can't believe I couldn't be there. The fact that they were performing at the wrong place when I was there and how I had Math Final Exams the day after they performed, on the Sunday race day! Ohman!! I doubt they are coming anytime soon since they came last year for F1. But please BSB, come (if you must) after A levels, so I can go guilt-free! Ugh, they are soooooo awesome.

Oh yes, I am going for Boys Like Girls with Anita! (: Her dad is so awesome he allowed her! YES!!! Okay, MUST. GET. TICKETS. SOON. Must not let it run out like Jason Mraz D: Okay, by this week I must get them!! First standing concert! (:

But somehow, I feel that it will never beat Backstreet Boys no matter how good they are going to be. It being my first concert I ever attended and all, and where the love affair with backstreet boys actually began (OMG I STILL HAVE THE NEVER GONE TOUR SHIRT SOMEWHERE). 
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We're alright on the surface, that's for sure [Jan. 3rd, 2010|12:53 am]
Well, that was depressing. But I guess it doesn't really matter anymore. On the surface we're fine, no one suspects anything unless we tell them, but deep down we know that there's a problem, but we aren't going to fix it are we. There's just too much things to deal with and everything's built up from day one. So, hopefully, we'll find the time to talk things over and perhaps find a way out of this mess. But I can tell you it won't be easy since we've become so judgmental as the days go by, different perspectives as the hours go by and there's of course the stubbornness that everyone has. Well, I think the real problem started when I realized how you treated me as a friend. How I always there for you, listening to you pour out your woes, but you weren't always there for me, and even if you were, you didn't really pay attention or just glanced out of the window and watch things go by or we go by things. I don't know if you realized, but it was there and then I started to drift away from you. Somewhere, sometime in that year, I lost that faith I had in you. Sure, surface everything's fine. But it always never is and will never be until we try to fix it...

Okay, I feel better now.
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Before 2010 descends upon us... [Dec. 31st, 2009|11:47 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[playing |The Saltwater Room - Owl City]

I don't want 2010 to come (even if it's in a matter of minutes and even if I have no power at all to stop it from coming) I just hope that it won't be so soon. But sadly, it can't be helped D:

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Last night, or rather this morning, I was conversing with Zenia through SMS; we both don't want 2010 to come D: 

(an excerpt of our exchange, I just left out some mundane stuff about us discussing the lack of work we did)

1211 Zenia: One more day in 2009
1218 Me: OMG JUST KILL ME NOW
1220 Zenia: Kill you. Stab you.
1224 Me: Ah, last day crap, Zenia, I DAMN SCARED! 8 lives left. Continue playing?
1228 Zenia: OMG, don't stress me. I think Next year I am going to jump down the building.
1252 Me: Please pull me along when you jump. You jump, I jump and all. But please prepare some cushions to cushion my fall. AH!!!
1254 Zenia: Mad! I must at least see Nicholas Jonas and give him a kiss. Haha. Night. Sleep. Tired.
1003 Me: STOP STEALING MY MAN. HAHAHA! The book I'm reading now is best friend stealing best friend's fiance. How coincidental.

NICK JONAS IS MINE YOU DON'T STEAL!!! I don't care about your Plan A&B. You have Zac already!!! HAHAHA (:

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2010 in a couple of minutes.
New Year resolutions:
- SMS less
- Use less internet
- Procrastinate less (this isn't very possible, trust me it has been on my list since forever)
- STUDY MY ASS OFF (I. Have. To. Get. Straight. As.)
- Start uni applications soon
- Be daring/bold/brave/less self conscious etc.
- (this year I have to add this) KEEP NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!
- SAVE LOADS OF MONEY TO PARTY POST As/IB WITH SASHA/ZENIA/MABEL/HAZEL/SCALY/PLC

Okay, I shall keep my list short, so I have less things to keep track of. Of course I'll have more I want to include, but I'll just leave it in my head.
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New Year's Eve [Dec. 31st, 2009|12:05 am]
[feeling | scared]

Okay, like every other year before 2009, I've always done my thank you's here in this LJ of mine. But this year, I thought I'd do it differently. I sent them out! (I apologise if you didn't get yours because I did them way too late and there wasn't enough time for me to rush out everything cause I had to study + help my mum at her shop!) But thank you to you and you and you and you (if you actually read my lj/fb notes) if you've been a part of my life this year!! 

Just got back from Taka (okay scratch that, it was a few hours ago). Finally bought my shoes! KEDS! Instead of Converse. Thank goodness. I didn't conform! HAHAHA (I'm sorry, I always told myself never to get converse because everyone has it and a few days ago, I was this close to getting a pair that cost a whopping $149.90) The Keds were so much cheaper and they even had 40%discount!! So it turned out to be only $35. GREAT SAVINGS. (thank goodness, else I would have never lived with the fact that my parents would actually get me that converse shoes) And since we were at Ngee Ann City, went to Kino (as usual) and got myself a book! Something Borrowed - seems like a nice read-to-be. There's a sequel - Something Blue.

Tomorrow's New Year Eve. Okay, wait. It is already New Year Eve. I just can't grasp the fact that it is 2010 tomorrow! It's going to be a hectic year and everything will be breathing down my neck. A levels, invitationals, SATs, tests, exams, Uni applications, deciding what to major/what to study in the U/where to go/why i should go there and all other nonsense. 

2010 WILL BE EPIC SUCCESS (IT HAS TO BE!)
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the week in words [Dec. 26th, 2009|11:10 pm]
Monday - Slept. Slacked. Tuition homework.
Tuesday - Tuition. Computer. Tuition. Computer. Television.
Wednesday (Eve of Christmas Eve) - Biology. Computer. Sydney White. Television. Pizza. Computer. Tuition homework. 
Thursday (Christmas Eve) - Worked. Zenia. Laugh. Crazy. Ion. Crowded. Dinner. Photographers. Camera. Nonsense. Worked.
Friday (Christmas aka the day I almost died of claustrophobia) - Helped out. 313@Somerset. Crazy. Crowded. Aunt. Lunch. Uni Qlo. Ngee Ann City. Wisma. Ion. Wheelock. St. Regis. Wheelock. Ion. Wisma. Taka. 313@Somerset. Marche. Home. Computer. Sleeeeeep.
Saturday (aka today) - Worked. SMU. Bank. Nonsense. Cotton On. Suntec. Sushi. Home. Computer (now)

That's it. I find it way easier to blog like that.
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Merry Christmas (Nightmare @ Orchard Road) [Dec. 25th, 2009|11:35 pm]
 I'm too tired to type about christmas and christmas eve.
But, all the same, Merry Christmas everyone. Hope you had a great day.
Orchard Road was an utter nightmare.
I could have died of claustrophobia. 
(but other than that, it was pretty cool)
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Like We Used To [Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:55 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | discontent]
[playing |Dakota - A Rocket To The Moon]

First and foremost, BOYS LIKE GIRLS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE OMGOMGOMGOMG. I am so there. (I want/hope/long/wish/pray)

Acquired a lot of music last week - Lady Gaga,  Parachute, OneRepublic, Owl City, We The Kings, Plain White T's, A Rocket To The Moon, Honor Society and many many more. Transferred music onto the Mac, some got lost along the way, so I have way less music files than what I actually have. Synced ipod with Mac, so it's like brand new now, with a lot of space available since I deleted all my podcasts and videos and photos. It actually feels pretty empty now.

I swear, researching on information on universities is the worst thing to research on the internet. I have no idea where or what to research on. How in the world am I supposed to know how to research how they teach their students etc. ARGH, OKAY I THINK IT'S JUST ME AND I HATE RESEARCH D: I think I should just leave it to my mom to help me, but she's always so busy so I shall enlist Mabel's help!! UK/USA/AUS/SG. The four options. I really want to go away but I'm afraid of going there alone and having to feel all homesick and sad and alone. UK&USA is way too far away from Singapore. At least AUS (melbourne's most probably where I'll end up if I go there) I have Sasha and Michelle there and it's just 7-8 hours away from Singapore. I don't want to stay in Singapore because I want to experience studying overseas and perhaps be more independent, have new experiences, travel, have more international friends, and just grow up and take care of myself. But Singapore's just so tempting, I have everyone near me and I can just meet up with everyone anytime (okay, minus busy schedules and all but you know what I mean) Actually, I didn't consider USA till recently (because of their rules on guns and stuff) I'm still quite hesitant on USA, plus it's so far away away away. But I've read Eve's sister's blog, (she's in Cornell) and it sounds quite interesting. If I go there I can go visit Femy too! And Hollywood and NYC etc. But UK's still my first choice. But it's so far away and it's always so cold. For UK, I think it's either London or Scotland, though Wales looks quite good too. Oh gosh, I wish I can spend my whole life traveling to different countries just to study in different universities. Okay enough university ramblings. (all because I just signed up for my SATs)

Argh, I'm damn irritated with myself. I signed up for SATs so late = no more space to take the test in HwaChong with Sasha! = having to take the test myself in ACJC myself!!! D: I have to go in there with no one i know at all to take the test! HOW. TO. SURVIVE. Oh well, I shall worry about that later (or not worry about it at all) Study plan for the next year. Study for MSA1, then mug all the way till jan 23 for SATs. To get a good enough score so I can forget about retaking the test. Yep, that sounds like a good enough plan (: my only consolation is that when I retake in May/June 2010, I'll have Mabel with me. (:  The past few days have been nonsense. Did nothing much; wasted the whole weekend away. I JUST FREAKING REALISED THAT I HAVEN'T TOUCHED ECONS I AM SO DEAD JUST KILL ME NOW. Argh argh argh. And christmas is in two days. G-R-E-A-T. I bought a nice new planner! With a cover of the Happy Prince (wait, is it the happy prince? The one with the story I never understood because I never got around to finish the book) Oh well, I have to go label the dates. When I'm free and sick of doing too much school work. I HAVE TO ABSTAIN FROM THE LAPTOP. An impossible feat though.

Oh yeah, I'm trying to sell my Sony Cybershot (I forgot the model number) It's in perfect condition and it's 2 years old. So if you have a friend that is interested/you're interested, drop me an email at
twentystreetlights@hotmail.com! (:
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I'm all Heartbroken-y [Dec. 16th, 2009|11:45 pm]
[I'm at |home]
[feeling | chipper]
[playing |Barriers - David Archuleta]

I caught Sasha cheating on me 1324576890 times yesterday when we were at Sentosa for our first ever PLC outing with the seniors (so it was PLC 06-07 batch together with PLC 07-08 batch). There were 10 of us, 5 from each PLC. We are such good people. The rest couldn't make it. I'm currently burnt and it's so itchy. Plus I was thinking of wearing my halter top I bought eons ago in Sydney's Esprit (okay, last year. It was techanically for this year's CNY, but I didn't wear it) Lucky I last minute ask Hazel what she was wearing then quikly change to my favourite blue tee before running out of the house to meet Hazel Peh, because I was running late. (I purposely one, cause I took my own sweet time when I found out at 9am that she just woke up) It was awkward at some parts but there's Sasha, so it was okay (: Haha! It was very funny meeting up with everyone else and it totally felt so normal, like as though we saw each other everyday (minus the fact that we had a lot to talk about and catch up). I had a nice time catching up with Hazel as we played ball standing in the water. We looked like idiots standing there and just throwing ball to each other but I don't care; I did it with my long lost best friend <3 HAHAHAH. Lunch-ed at Subway in Sentosa and Dinner at Marche @ Vivocity. (more photos on facebook!)

Came home and then uploaded all the photos on to my Mac - it's damn cool I tell you. (Bryan are you reading this! HAHAHA, It's time to save up!! Or drop your laptop accidentally) I didn't even have to load the canon software thingy on to the laptop and iPhoto detects it all! & it can help me upload onto Facebook too! AWESOME HUH.

Spent the whole weekend at the shop with Zenia! Then on Saturday, when we were about to close the shop, the shutters wouldn't work then my mum decided to let people in to buy stuff. Then a whole lot of people kept coming and the queue was so long non-stop for super long! Zenia and I stood at the cashier and just scanned and scanned and scanned, and collect cash cash cash. We see until our eyes crossed already look at the money also must look twice before taking cause we scared we saw the wrong coins! First time so many many many people at the shop and the queue so long! (I doubt the Cathay one is ever this long for such a long period of time) Apparently, some korean thing just ended at fort canning then they were on their way to take the last train/bus. HAHA (: It was damn fun. Working with Zenia has been an absolute BLAST (: We talk about everything and anything while we're at it too! Haha, FLOO NETWORK! (:

Zenia got her Mac yesterday and she's coming over tomorrow! Gosh, I'm so excited! Hahah, I think cause my mum knows her now and so she likes Zenia, that she was agreeable to letting her come over!! She's going to come kope my music files and microsoft office for Mac. Then we are going to attempt to study, though I doubt we'll succeed seeing how we planned to photobooth! Plus she's going to bring her SIMS3 over! Okay, we have to try. BIO/CHEM/MATHS! But first, I have to go to school and attempt to find my GP Essay plan if not I don't even want to do it if I don't even get it back. (oh yes, I feel rebellious) ARGH. I actually have to dress up in school attire and walk to school! D: I'm going to take a risk and wear slippers. I hope no one catches me! But I'm not going to be alone; Zenia's my accomplice!

Okay, I guess I'm going to go off and play something, not sure what but yeah do something fun that doesn't require much brain work.
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You don't even want to know. [Dec. 8th, 2009|01:23 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | sick]
[playing |Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus]

Yeah you don't even want to know how sick I am. Ugh yesterday was the horrible-est day of my life. Kept puking and had stomachache the entire day. Went to the doctor in the night and then doc said I had virus in my stomach. Great job Cassandra! Gosh. And I got a jab to reduce/stop the churning and reduce the nausea. Didn't sleep the whole night, just kept waking up to go to the toilet. I just sat there and fell asleep a couple of times cause I was too lazy to get up from the throne and then go back to bed only to go back again a few minutes later. But it was so uncomfortable sitting there. Ugh, okay enough of sickness talk it makes me feel worse. But seriously, last night was horrible. I totally wanted to go to the hospital and ask them to take out my stomach and clean it then put it back in but obviously that was not going to happen. I think it was what I ate on Sunday night. Ate a turquito (okay, I have no idea how to spell this) and drank a can of jolly shandy. Ugh okay this reminds me of the taste and you don't want to get me started on it it's disgusting ugh ugh ugh. I'm. Never. Going. To. Drink. Jolly. Shandy. Ever. Again. It's not as nice anyway.

Oh well, on the lighter side of things, caught Beauty & the Beast on Sunday night. Was supposed to go with my mum but in the end I went with my aunt cause my mum had to go and cover for one of her colleagues. It was a W!ld Rice production, help at the Drama Centre Theatre at the National Library. I must say the place is pretty cool and the play was very nice. I like Beauty's 2 sisters - played by Chua Enlai and Darius Tan. They were damn good. I love the script especially the songs (Original too!!) and how they added in the Ris Low stuff (Boomz, shingz, rad, preens etc) Gosh! Loved it! Next production they are going to have is Animal Farm and I'm so looking forward to it because I did Animal Farm in Secondary 2! I want to go watch. Anyone? (:

Oh well, that's what happened on Sunday and Monday. Thank goodness I did some maths on Sunday and clarified all the unknowns (of what i did) yesterday during tuition. But other than that, I've completed NOTHING! So I'm rather dead. I don't have the energy to think of what to eat, let alone think about bio/chem/maths/econs. I'm so screwed please. Plus SAT prep! && work shadowing/attachment reflections+pwp slides :O OHMANNNNNN
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I've earned almost $150! (: [Dec. 5th, 2009|01:56 am]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | tired]

Okay, just got home from an exciting day. Sorta exciting. Wait. It's saturday already. So it's supposed to be yesterday I'm talking about. Caught New Moon with Shanying then went to work with Zenia at mum's shop. Stayed there till 12plus this morning. Headed over to The Cathay store then she talked to her staff and then I found out that Sahan and the other 2 indian guys from Sri Lanka plays cricket too! (: Better go befriend them and ask them to teach us cricket! HAAHHA. Okay, I should go sleep now. Study in Europe talk @ Hilton hotel later! I hope it isn't too crowded!
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End of work attachment! [Dec. 4th, 2009|09:25 am]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | determined]
[playing |Bad Romance - Lady Gaga]

Work attachment at the Underwater World Singapore is over (: Yesterday was fun though. We had to meet at like 730 at the harbourfront interchange, took the bus in. Sentosa was damn peaceful at that hour. It was nobody nobody but us (and of course the people working there and hotel guests okay you get the picture). We were first attached to the curatorial department where all the behind the scenes work takes place - the feeding, the cleaning of tanks, the quarantine tanks and the preparation of food items. Cleaned the baby sea turtles' tank, scraped the shark eggs' shell to make it visible for the light to shine through (to be put in display in the exhibits, to show the development of the embryo in the egg) - this was the most scary one! The lives of the baby sharks were in our hands. Had to be very very very careful. Counted fishes, cleaned the sea turtles' quarantine tank (we actually went in and was walking (& scrubbing the tank) with the sea turtles in the water. The sea turtles were HUGE. During our break/waiting time, the guys fed the squid (Haha, I think it was the squid), then they went onto the baby sharks. Then we went to feed the turtles outside (we split into 2 groups. One went to feed the rays, the rest of us fed the turtles.) Went back to the "behind-the-scenes" place and then we did surface feeding - we actually fed the marine creatures that you can see in the underwater world exhibits! & we got the chance to feed the sharks too!! Break for lunch, subway couple lunch with Anita again! (: HAHAH. Thereafter, we were attached to the front office doing different jobs. I was at the touch pool. Picked up the starfish (Anita and I think it's fake) for the kids to feel; watched out for guests, made sure they do not bring the creatures out of the water and also not do anything to the creatures. Then the attachment was over! (: (Forgive me if I had the sequence of events jumbled up, my memory isn't perfect)

After we got out of Sentosa, Anita and I went to Vivo, wanting to look for QY's present. But we ended up at coffee bean. Drank some hot chocolate cause it was so cold outside and then went over the the CD shop in vivo. THEY WERE HAVING SALE OMG D: Should have bought a couple of VCDs! They were going at only $6.95!! Argh. But we took down a couple of movie titles so that we can watch online! HAHAH. Anita's phone failed her at a crucial time like that. It hung. "It knows I'm doing something illegal" HAHA!

Then we left. She alighted at Outram and I went on to Dhoby Gaut. Visited mum at her shop then headed to Cathay (again) to get tickets for New Moon! Watching with Shanying later! (: Then since I was there, went to try my luck at Gramaphone to see if John Mayer arrived (even though they haven't called me) Sheeeeeesh. It was there already lah and they totally did not call me. D: Bought it anyways and then went back to wait for mum to be done with work. (I'm so glad there are lyrics in his album!) It's pretty good. I think it would be the last cd I'll buy this year (I hope). I spent way too much on CDs this year. Just ask Qianying. I think she's keeping track for me!

Oh well, okay that sums up yesterday in case I don't a chance to come online tonight cause I'm working with Zenia again at my mum's place! Plus New Moon later with Shanying! Plus, my mum scolded me this morning for using the computer everyday till so late and she was like "From tomorrow onwards, no touching of the computer!" But in my defense, I did some math before I came on last night!!! I finished matrices! HAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm saving the (worst) for the last.

Now, I've just got to figure a way to go get my GP essay plan back from my teacher and start doing homework/studying.
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I feel cheated :( [Dec. 2nd, 2009|10:13 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | crappy]
[playing |Maybe - Enrique Iglesias]

Day one of the Ocean Ambassador attachment - we had time to tour the underwater world ourselves, then we had a guided tour, went behind the scenes to see the tanks and the quarantine places etc, basically the place where it's linked to the exhibits, break for lunch, then a talk on marine life, interaction with the fur seals, a brief talk on dolphins and then a talk on sharks and conservation. That basically sums up day one. Tomorrow we'll be getting down to doing actual work like perhaps cleaning the tanks, preparing the food etc. Too bad we can't dive in and swim with the animals. Oh well. I think I want to work as a dolphin/seal trainer or a tank cleaner. It's. So. Damn. Cool.

I feel so cheated. I made my way down to Cathay just to get John Mayer, only to go all the way there (okay I exaggerate it's on the way but still I had to get off the train and actually tap my card when I was on a straight train home) and find out the stock hasn't arrived. FML please. Argh, but I got Enrique's Greatest Hits for mummy cause she wanted to play it in her shop. So I brought it home and ripped it onto the Mac. AND NOW I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND THE FILES! D: Therefore, not bring able to locate the files, I am unable to get it onto my ipod :(( Because I am still using my old laptop to sync my stuff into the ipod. Life sucks take drugs D:

I think I'll sync my ipod here but I'll prolly lose all the movies and videos because I'm too lazy to transfer everything else over :(

Oh well, I think I should hit the sack soon long day tomorrow!
I HOPE THEY CALL ME TOMORROW AND TELL ME THAT JOHN MAYER'S CD IS IN STORES OMG PLEASE THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
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Reality Killed the Video Star [Dec. 1st, 2009|12:51 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | quixotic]
[playing |Morning Sun - Robbie WIlliams]

Yes, I think John Mayer's CD is in stores today today today. But sadly, I'm stuck at home today cause I'm sick (but I wasn't planning on leaving the house anyway cause I'll be out for the next 3-4 days. Sentosa Underwater World attachment tomorrow and thursday with Anita! I hope we don't stay in the air conditioned place too long.

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Robbie William's Reality Killed the Video Star is nice nice nice nice (:
I love his lyrics and the way he sings his songs.
& the way he designed his album it's so pretty like a book.

Since you went away my heart breaks everyday
-Track 3 (You know Me)

How do you rate the morning sun/after a long and sleepless night/how many stars would you give to the moon/do you see those stars from where you are/shine on the lost and the loneliest/the ones who can't get over it.
-Track 1 (Morning Sun)

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Just spent the whole morning online, with the telly on in the background playing music videos back to back to back to back. Watched a couple of videos online, including (500) Days Of Summer! I finally watched it and it's damn nice. I love everything from the whole storyline to the way they did it (even if it was so complicated with all the days and all) to the trip in Ikea to the pretty clothes Summer wears in the movie to the way Tom acts/reacts. Okay, I'm rambling and I don't know what I'm saying anymore the medication is taking its effect and I'm totally feeling light headed. I should totally let my laptop rest; it's heating up D:

I wish I was in the Maldives with the cousins now.
Anywhere but here and anything but being sick.

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MACBOOKPRO! [Nov. 27th, 2009|11:28 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | ecstatic]
[playing |Ashlee Simpson - Love Makes The World Go Round]

I GOT MY MACBOOK PRO!! Okay, major-ly happy BUT I'm taking a long time getting used to this. Clicked and clicked a lot of stuff. So far, I'm only familiar with PHOTOBOOTH (HAHAHAHA) and how to open my thumbdrive and stuff and of course the internet. However, I'm disgusted disgusted disgusted with the messenger. It's totally sucky/disgusting/fugly! Oh gosh. That's the only bad side of it so far. Oh another one, I can't get used to the keys yet and I'm still trying to figure out how to use my pictures as desktop pictures that are not that pixelfied or whatever it is now. Anyway, I've got the 15 inch one cause my dad said the 13 inch one is so small (he plans to use it see that's the bad thing. I just remembered: I doubt he will use it cause he'll be so lost!) The IT fair was madness - there were way too many people. Way way way way too many people. Claustrophobic much. Okay I'm on the verge of being incoherent because I'm so sleepy already I spent the whole morning reading econs then was out the whole afternoon and spent the evening trying to decipher my new baby. Watched Xmen2 and now I'm here. Okay, the lighted keys fascinate me and I shall use it in my room next time when its fully charged. I've got to transfer my music in here k bye world.
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Last Day Of School [Nov. 26th, 2009|11:33 pm]

Yesssssssss, school finally came to an end. (Happiness however, is only temporary cause I'd be bored by, let's see, perhaps saturday? Unless I get my MacBook Pro then it'll be a whole different story) So anyway, I've got to get down and study like crap. BIO CHEM MATHS ECONS BIO BIO BIO BIO. (note emphasis on biology) Plus do the SAT practice papers, register for it too. Plus meet up with people!

I met up with Denise yesterday and we just talked and talked and talked. I love meeting up with people and just talking all the crap shit nonsense. HAHAHA. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU (: Stayed out till like 10plus, got home around 10.45pm - by far the latest on a school night. (My dad said I had wings already and am flying. Yeah right) Oh well, if only I didn't have schooltoday I could possibly have stayed out a little later.

Went out today with ALY since S couldn't make it, it was just CALY. They wanted to watch Mulan, but I was just so against it just because I didn't want to watch it since we've all watched the cartoon version and all and I just felt that it was watching for the sake of watching something. So anyway, we caught My Girlfriend Is An Agent. IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD. (Okay, I think the guy is cute! HAHA) I totally killed (cried) myself laughing. ROM COM <3

Okay, I'm officially trying to boycott Gramaphone. It just had to go and change and be like That CD Shop, making things go at 3 for $49.90 and 1 cd is like around $20! :( I feel so cheated! Argh argh argh, I'm super affected. HMV now has the lowest price among all the big major maket players (oh gosh this is so econs. But, I LIKE) I think it's like price leadership and all but I don't understand how That CD Shop can be the leader (I'm assuming). Anyway, still waiting for John Mayer! Then I might get Kris Allen and One Republic together and do the 3 for $49.90 thing. But argh, my fifty dollar note will just disappear like that. Oh well, cost and benefit principle. I think I should check out that chinatown store that my aunt brought me too the other time to get my overdue christmas present.

IT fair tomorrow hopefully. I'mwishing really hard that my parents get me the MacBook Pro. (I shall be on my best behaviour tomorrow!) Then at least I'll have something to keep me busy for let's say another week or so?

I'm sorry I've been in such a bad mood these few days. But then again, I don't know why I'm apologising. Please don't be so oblivious to things around you and I don't know, maybe start caring? But then again, if you don't then there's nothing I can do and I'm learning not to give a shit about it. So there, I've had my say and I hope I'll be able to put it behind me during this break. But you'd probably think nothing's the problem anyway so just pretend you never read this if you actually do.

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I JUST FOUND MY ECONS ESSAY FOR FINAL EXAMS BEING USED AS ONE OF THE SAMPLES THEY UPLOADED ONTO MOODLE. SHIT IT REALLY MADE MY DAY (: I wish I wrote neatly! HAHAHA. I'll go to sleep later happy for the rest of the day!

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Lectures Lectures Lectures [Nov. 19th, 2009|04:20 pm]
There's still one more week to the holidays and I've already started planning my holidays. But techanically, all I've done is to allocated days for going out and days for studying, not the full study plan yet. Oh well. I have to do SATs and BIO BIO BIO BIO. Gosh. Okay, time to cut down the internet time (my mum says) and get down to packing my room (yeah I'll never be done packing; I've been packing ever since day one) But that has to wait. Pack for camp first (camp's tomorrow; dread dread dread - cause I hate packing and unpacking) I hope it will be fun and not so much running please my legs are going to give way one day (okay, touchwood).

Sasha's coming back next week! (: & met up with adeline yesterday, had loads of fun with all our nonsense talking and hypothesising (love you!). Still haven't met up with the PLC and denise & edlyn! D: SOOOON PEOPLE.

Okay, I better go pack soon before it's too late (or rather before I fall asleep)

We were fascinated by a caterpillar/worm during bio lecture today (sorry, I just had to add this in)
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Cause I left my heart with you [Nov. 6th, 2009|11:12 pm]
[I'm at |home]
[feeling | sleepy]

This week has been long. Quite long and yet short at the same time.

Monday was chinese. Chinese was epic. Morning, met Zenia and then we were totally reading zhe li zhen an jing (the chapter I really really hate cause I don't really understand it - or some parts anyway and the passage is way too long it puts me to sleep). I prayed really hard to be sitting with someone with less distracting habits - think the guy who sat beside me for chemistry final exams; He. Kept. Shaking. His. Leg. - and yeah it kinda worked out and the person (guy) beside me didn't shake his leg like the chemistry paper guy (linda was on my other side). But there was another problem. He sneezes. Okay that's not a problem. The problem is. He. Did. Not. Cover. His. Nose. To an extent that I felt that he's sneeze landed on my arm THAT IS COVERED WITH JACKET (oh no, not paranoid) It really felt like there was a drop on my jacket. Gosh. (later I found out that Zenia had the same problem and she experienced the same thing!! So there. Not paranoid!) Paper was crazy. Compo I just wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote. Paper 2 - some walt disney passage came out and zhe li zhen an jing came out too. Left it alone and tackled the other questions first cause I knew I would need a lot of time to think. The multiple choices were all so close they are so hard to choose/differentiate. Anyway, lunch with Zenia afterwards and she kept making me laugh so hard I was on the verge of tearing.

Tuesday was a totally waste of time I swear. I wanted to skip (cause it would've been PW the whole day) Asked my civics tutor the day before and he told us we could only leave at around one in the afternoon and that it would be PW the whole time. In the end I went anyway cause I felt bad and I said I would bring my Taboo and plus I needed food. So yeah, we totally did not do anything PW and just played/slept/slacked/stoned. Sneaked out of school at around 1230 (okay, didn't sneak but it kinda counts as "sneaking out"), went home while the rest went over to linda's house to play rock band. Came home and just slept slept slept.

Wednesday wanted to skip school yesterday but then came an sms that we have to bring our GPF file on tuesday night. Then no choice must go to school cause the file was with me. Plus we were going to have our last oral presentation dry run before the real actual one next wednesday. But argh, really didn't feel like going the whole time because I was dreading the presentation. I've gotten so sick and tired of re-reading my script over and over and over and over again. It's like we keep presenting to everyone the same things and I bet they are equally as bored as I am presenting it to them for let's say almost 5 times? Gosh, I think I can read my script in my sleep now. After that we just did our GPF and had lunch and walked with Anita and Qianying. Dad was at home - sent his car for servicing. Then in the night, went over to meet my mum and then headed to Centrepoint for dinner cause the 'rents wanted to shop at Robinsons. Dinner at the Soup Restaurant. Bought two shirts from Gap. They have new jackets! Oh gosh, way better (thicker!) than the one I have now. Then when we were paying for the shirts, the cashier told us that the jacket I had was going at half the price. (OMG ARGH) Paid so much for it then and five months later it's at half price. Oh well, I guess thats the way it always is. I want to get the hoodie that is designed for guys! The guys clothes are always so nice and its times like these I wish I were a guy. The hoodie! (think big and baggy and comfy) lovelovelove. Okay, fair enough, my jacket is quite big now, but it's too thin! I don't even feel warm wearing it. Argh okay next time I will get the hoodie for guys. Bought a book too - Sophie Kinsella's Remember Me?

Thursday. Another slack day, our timetable ended at 9am. But I went cause we weren't going to do anything in school but we were going to have our first ever (full attendance) SCALY outing! & also to celebrate Sherly's birthday. So went to school and slacked slacked slacked. Read Remember Me? and finished it at about 11am (OMG I WANT TO KILL MYSELF FOR FINISHING IT). It was an awesome read, love the characters! Lexi and Jon!! Okay yes typical of me to like the happy ending. Headed to cafe for cheese tofu and random chats plus anita managed to get to a new level in Bounce! (I got to another level by myself later at my mum's shop and we're at the last level already, so sad). Then it started raining heavily. We waited for the rain to lessen (sorry wrong word right but I can't think of the correct term) then headed out for our outing with jiaying as our guest star. Headed to iluma for lunch and coraline in 3D. Lunched at Manhatten Fish Market. I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. Sherly and Jiaying and I rock cause we were damn good eaters!! Anita and Linda seemed to eat non-stop, but when they went to the toilet, we realised that they still had a lot on their platter and we really wondered what they were eating/doing. Then Coraline in 3D. The 3D glasses were so uncomfortable they were on my nose and I couldn't breathe properly. I feel asleep at one part cause I was too tired. Overall, quite nice but quite predictable and a little freaky. Then we just walked round and round iluma, checking out the shops. Parted - took a train down to meet my mum, anita & sherly went home, qian ying went to linda's house to wait for further instructions for the sleepover at Esther's. Ate with mum, then grocery shopping at carrfour then home sweet home.

Today was slacky and boring. No school, so slept in but woke up early anyway cause I went and put my alarm at 7plus. Lazed around in bed, the weather was too nice for me to get up. When my mum finally got me out of bed, had breakfast then had to do all the boring chores - fold clothes. I swear its the worst thing ever. I only like folding towels and things to be ironed (can anyhow fold cause it's going to be ironed anyway). Caught the EMAs; love the tribute for MJ, the U2 performance, Katy Perry's hosting and Backstreet Boys appearance! Then slacked slacked and talked to Anita online had lunch and waited for Esther to come and get Taboo. In the end, esther didn't come, she went over to Asilah's to borrow hers. So I went to sleep without setting my alarm. Woke up just nice at 5pm, jumped out of bed and went to shower. Headed over to mum's store. Saw the gym coach at potong pasir mrt. Lucky I didn't go over to the end to board the train. He could have seen me but then he might not have recognised me cause one, I wasn't in school attire, two, my hair was down and I was wearing specs, (see why I hate living so near school! I'm always fearful of whom I might see at the MRT station) Went to Ion, met up with aunt and cousin. (oh gosh my cousin is getting very obnoxious I can't stand it; she's too proud. If you think I'm spoilt, she's way way way way way way worse. All my cousins on my mother's side are). Went to epicentre to check out the MacBook Pro (oh gosh I really want one pretty pretty please). Dinner at Swensons and then left for home.

So here I am now.

I'm trying to find the songs I heard on the radio but I can't seem to figure out the title and it doesn't help that my speakers arn't working at all. I need to go arrange some PW thing soon. OP on wednesday oh gosh. It's so soon and it will be over soon enough and we'll be free! FREE FROM PW oh my the end is near I can almost taste it. Alright, off to try to jump higher in Icy Tower on FB and then I'm off to sleep. No tuition tomorrow and I'lm going to attempt to either clean up the study room or do some tuition homework. (key phrase: going to attempt) I think I forgot everything already I am so screwed.

Goodnight world.

I don't know where the hell I'm going/but I'm going after you
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Here we go again again again [Oct. 26th, 2009|12:22 am]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | sad]

Please don't let me wallow in self pity and do something to make me forget everything that I already know.

This weekend pretty much rocked and sucked at the same time, depending on the sequence of events or whatever you want to call it (I'm actually quite incoherent cause it's so late plus I'm so sad). But I'm really glad for all my friends being there for me. They really really are the best. (Amazing how we bond through all of this) Life sucks take drugs (haha, random thought but don't worry I won't) Although we should just live like we're dying and try it anyway (haha okay strike that). Shit, slap happy already.

There are other things on my mind but its way too late already so next time perhaps & I promise I'll be fine. Just get me ice cream? (: Not that it really works but what the hell, I predict hot weather later.
 

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EGGCITING! [Oct. 17th, 2009|11:20 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[playing |The All American Rejects - Mona Lisa]

I survived results yesterday.

Quite disappointed for Chemistry and Math and GP. CHINESE WAS OMG. One more mark (overall) to an A! Sad sad case. Econs was the best. Thank you very much. Highest in class together with Qianying! Overall second in class I think. AH, if only my MSAs were better, I think I could have hit  at least 80 too. Oh well, I'm happy already, considering I spent my whole night (before the paper), did not touch bio at all (therefore an E). Might try and apply for H3 econs. (No harm right?)

ABCD for EMCB (66 rank points) Nice right. I've been on steady decline since the start of the year (71, 68, 68 then now 66) Gosh.

Ah well, since I got to go pack already, I shall continue another day.
Class BBQ tomorrow (:
I'm eggcited (QY's going to kill me for spelling it this way cause she hates eggs)

Truth or dare tomorrow :S GOSH

Grocery shopping, marinating chicken, water polo, tennis, BBQ 
AWESOMEZXZX. Goodnight everyone.

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SHIT IT'S FRIDAY ALREADY [Oct. 15th, 2009|10:48 pm]
[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | scared]

Facebook is acting up again (in case you wondering why you see this on FB, it's because I imported my LJ. So yeah) Plus itunes isn't working either. I sense some bad things going to happen soon (Okay, touch wood). Let's try windows media player. Then again, it's alright. It takes too long and I haven't uploaded/imported/whatever BSB into it.

My whole body is aching from two consecutive days of captain's ball and yesterday's training (I swear Z&M&QY are the best friends ever but but but they can't stop making fun of me) . Yesterday's captain's ball was scary! The guy from S20 was so weird/intense/whatever word describes him. Today was way way way better cause we were evenly matched and there was lesser people on court and the sun was out (not exactly good but my tan's fading so you get the drift). It was a really great workout (so much so that I couldn't bring myself to climb up 4 flights of stairs).

PW was total crap cause we just got scolded for lousy/pathetic/not up to expectations Organisation of Ideas :(

Okay, I'm too tired to think of what else to type except that tomorrow (or rather later) is results and I'm absolutely terrified :S I don't know if I can get that A for econs and whether or not I get to keep my 4H2s. (I really hope I get that A for econs even though its like only 3 people in class got A overall and 2 is more or less confirmed qianying and ben which leaves 1) Ah, I feel like ponning school now. It's going to be an emotional roller coaster ride tomorrow.

I hope to get it over and done with soon. Then play/laugh/joke like it didn't happen.

Okay I'm getting incoherent already. Goodnight world.
 

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What I know now <3 [Oct. 14th, 2009|12:22 am]
[I'm at |home]
[playing |Backstreet Boys - What I know now]

Life should be like a game of cards / You make a mistake / Shuffle the deck and start over / It should be just like drivin in your car / Get lost and your navigation system / Gets you closer / But there ain't no handbook / You're on your own / Got no instructions / When it comes to love / Cuz once you do something / Can't be undone / Wish I could take back / Letting you go / If I knew then / What I know now / I wouldn't have said / I don't need you around / Alone in this mess / Silence is so loud / So I would treat you the best / Baby if I knew then / What I know now (What I know now) / What I know now (What I know now) / What I know now (What I know now) / Yeah I would treat you the best / Baby if I knew then / What I know now / Life should come with remote controls / Then I could rewind into / The time it was better / It should have a restart button / So, I could travel right back / To the day that I met her / But there ain't no handbook / You're on your own / Got no instructions / When it comes to love / Cuz once you do something / Can't be undone / Wish I could take back / Letting you go / If I knew then / What I know now / I wouldn't have said / I don't need you around / Alone in this mess / Silence is so loud / So I would treat you the best / Baby if I knew then / What I know now (What I know now) / What I know now (What I know now) / What I know now (What I know now) / Yeah I would treat you the best / Baby if I knew then / What I know now / Cuz there ain't no handbook / You're on your own / Got no instructions / When it comes to love / See once you do something / Can't be undone / Wish I could take back / Letting you go

Okay I think I'm in love with the new album already. It's been playing on repeat and I think I know the lyrics to the first 5 songs already and the tune to the rest of the album (sorta). It takes me 2-3 songs to walk home from across the bridge at the opposite bus stop. (: (so techanically, I kinda know the lyrics to the first 3 songs quite well)

Ohwell, long day ahead. Training! (: (I hope they don't cancel and make us sad all over again) Oh but we're bringing our bat and balls so even if they cancel, we'll self train! (or rather, laugh and play)
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I'm turning into one damn whiny kid [Oct. 12th, 2009|11:54 pm]
[I'm at |Home]

Today was terrible. It was totally slacky. Which was good though. But a total waste of time! Should. Have. Stayed. At. Home. And. Slept. The weather was fantastic in the afternoon. Basically we just had free time for GP (we were supposed to do the J2 mock paper thing though) then Econs we basically bitched. HAHAHA. It was so funny to see mrliang's reaction to our bitching. & he just gave us the time to bitch after telling us what to prepare for the next lesson cause derrick didn't collect the tutorial set earlier. Then one and half hour break (way way way way too long). Chem - oh the horrors. I think I failed :( anyhow, I think her comments on consistency and then doing terribly? I think it was me :( then maths lecture was the GC fastest fingers competition. QY and I were listening to BSB and we fell asleep. It was all good (: Then maths tut - INTEGRATION. It killed me again. Argh, I better go study it soon before its too late. Then home sweet home because laoshi didn't come today. First time in forever I went home at 3pm. Gosh, it felt so gooood. (:

FINALLY TALKED TO HAZEL TODAY. She totally MIA-ed like almost half a year :( (ARE YOU READING THIS GIRL) We are so going to go overseas together okay. You convince mine to not make me take medicine (but still send me overseas) and I'll convince yours to let you go overseas with me! (: HAHAHA. Help me get a blackbirdfly in Japan! :D

I seriously need to talk to Sasha! :(
Craaaaap. Where's everyone when you need a listening ear. Or just someone to bitch/whine/complain to.

Another long day tomorrow. WIth extra PW lecture :(
I'm considering dropping something! We all wonder if S19 will still exist next year D:

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You make me smile <3 [Oct. 11th, 2009|10:54 pm]
[I'm at |home]
[feeling | bored]
[playing |The Rasmus - Your Forgiveness]

Facebook's acting up again and I'm so bored cause I can't reply people! :(
So I'm back here.

Cut my hair today. It's thinner now and shorter (obviously) and harder to manage. I doubt you'll catch me with my hair down in public anytime soon. Got to let it regrow first. Ion's actually really boring. There isn't much to do there. But maybe it's because I've never really explored it fully yet. (it's always too crowded)

I'm actually dreading school tomorrow. I don't want to have lessons. Plus I haven't done maths for tutorial tomorrow. Integration killed me. I could only do the first part of the first question and I'm stuck already and I gave up. I'm so dead for tomorrow. At least we can go home early cause chinese is cancelled (sorta). The only thing I'm looking forward to is PE on wednesday. And perhaps training in the afternoon. Minus whatever physical training we're going to do. Just skills please.

I really want to watch (500) Days of Summer before friday. I'm certain I'm grounded for life after friday. I can just imagine myself getting back the sure-to-be-horrible-results. For the next four days, I'm on a quest to find the best place (where no one will see) to go cry. Currently, I'm thinking the fourth floor. (But it sucks to know that I have to climb up four flights of stairs just to cry). Therefore, must watch on thursday or friday after training. Or skip training because I'm predicting sadness and I need something to cheer me up. I hope zenia and mabel don't pon training, I know I can always count on them to make me laugh no matter how bad things are. (QY has bio, argh)

I better go make a happy playlist..
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How did I let you get here under my skin [Oct. 10th, 2009|12:47 pm]
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[I'm at |Home]
[feeling | numb]
[playing |Backstreet Boys - Bye Bye Love]

Back again to revive this poor poor neglected LJ of mine.

I'll skip the rants about promos prep and promos itself. (I wanted to post stuff about it but I always type halfway then give up)

PW week's over. Thank goodness. It was one whole week of nothing but chinese and pw and break in our timetable. At least the breaks were long enough to save us from having too much PW/Chinese. I think we've made good progress. It looks more likea report now and I just hope we'll at least get a high ME/EE for A&E after so much we've put in this week. Thankfully our teacher didn't shoot us down (else I think we would have been pretty demoralized). Anyhow, PW week is overrr. But dry run for OP is coming up. OHGOSH. I need to speak loudly for the next few weeks!! & BE HEARD.

I'm so dreading this coming Friday. We've getting back all our papers and I think I did quite badly. I'm at risk (self declared) of having to drop my fourth H2 :(( Thing is, I don't actually mind dropping it. I just don't want to have to change classes and be the new girl in class all over again when everyone else in that class knows one another for a year already. That's the worst part. Not such a good idea to start everything afresh especially when it's such a crucial year next year.

A pass is all I'm asking for.

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Been talking to Sandra last night and now. We didn't really catch up but we just talked nonsense (: & we both really really really miss secondary school. I miss the familiarity of it all. (sorry, I'm being really emo now but I can't help it)

After almost a year, I think I don't really like JC that much. It's going by way too fast; I'm wasting too much time worrying and overanalyzing things - about how people would think of me and whether I'm being too nice or cold. You worry about offending people especially your classmates because you don't want it to affect your friendships because you're going to be with them for a long time, spending everyday and every lesson with them. Plus there's way too much politics (all around). I really miss being in an all girls school. You don't develop crushes or have eyecandies (unless you're les, then its a whole different story) in school, you stay focus and the only time you see guys is when you go home/tuition and there's no chance at all you'll ever like them because you only see them once or twice a week. You can talk about anything and everything under the sun because you know your friends and you're just so comfortable with them. You know they will always be there for you through whatever shit. You don't have time to maintain your friendships outside school or even within school itself because you are just so damn busy and your parents are just so unreasonable/strict (see why I would rather have a thousand and one siblings). Most of your friends would have gone ahead with their lives and changed a lot, but you're still hanging on to whatever there is left to hold on to and it's making you sad when they've changed into someone else altogether (okay the extreme). And every time you worry about results because the class is just way too small and everyone else just seems to be so good and you don't want to be at the bottom because it'll be so hard to climb back up when you've always been near the top and everyone expects so much from you. (They don't believe you when you say you're not going to do well) & I'm still not used to having guys around (though I'm fine with the guys in my class), it's making me way too self conscious. & you just spend your whole time worrying about things that are not even worth second thoughts - like "oh shit i think I just gave a very dumb answer", "oh crap, what would they think of me now" and whether or not people like you.

Okay, I've taken way too long to type this post. (Or rather I've took such a long break that I've no idea what else to write).

I guess I'll go find more lyrics to save into the ipod & think of what to do tonight. I still want to watch (500) Days Of Summer! Argh.

I think X know my deepest darkest secret. (okay, it's not a dark secret)

&I apologise for the emotional rant.
LinkExpress yourself :D

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